soledad

I was recently reading a novel that brought one of my biggest fears to light. I know it sounds so lame, but my biggest fear is losing my mind. No joke. I feel like I could make it through any trial in life or die in the most gruesome way possible, but if I lose my "soledad" (yes joan, i did use spanish, and if you don't get the meaning, listen to this song) i don't know what i'd do if i lost that sanctuary. It's my home, my place of rest, my entire being.

al admirar la distancia de los cielos me da esperanza
que mis anhelos se cumpliran
y aun que sea por un momento
no me escapa el sentimento
que este lugar me da
y por un dia mas
puedo dejar todo atras en mi soledad

And that is how i feel.