for you to notice

Have you ever felt like you're alone, even if a crowd of people surrounds you? it's something like this:

He says "Green is the color everyone sees all around me.
Gray is the color I see around her, and she's just a blur."

I feel so alone right now, but i'm too busy to do anything about it. I feel ok most of the time because i'm so busy, but once i have a minute to myself, i feel empty again.
Yeah, yeah, I know that I'm being dumb, and i'm being insecure, but i don't care. I'm being honest to myself, and that's good enough for me.

I want to give you whatever you need. What is it you need? Is it what I need? or is it within me?
It's hard to believe how i am getting by on so little from you. It's hard to believe that i let myself get so wrapped into you. There's gotta be something that would be worthwhile for me to give to you...
We need a connection but you seem to push me far away from you.

sometimes it feels like the harder i push, the further i fall. so i don't want to try to find the her love again, even though i'm dying without it. maybe my weekend up at logan will help my head clear things up. probly not, but you can always hope

MIA

You won't find me, I'm going MIA. Tonight I'm leaving going MIA............

okay, maybe not. I've been missing for the past while, but I'm back now, and will try to post just about most of the time. I was going to say everyday, but that's a lot. XC is over!!!! I got 34 at Region and i got some certificate saying i play sports and get good grades. But there's still editing for buffalog next week and a whole thing about the term ending. woot woot.

Rutabaga.


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sorry bout that, MIA= Missing in Action