it's as easy as life

WHY DOES LIFE HAVE TO BE SO BEAUTIFUL AT THE SAME TIME AS PAINFUL?
sometimes i wish i didn't have rules to live by. if i didn't have to deal with consequences, then everything'd be easy. i would be able to take chances; i could metaphorically dive off cliffs to see how it'd feel, but when the ground came rushing up at me, i wouldn't have to feel the splat. so here i am, tiptoeing around life because i'm scared of hurting myself and others.