In my khaki pants

every time i look at her and what she does, it makes me hurt. i think i've done everything i can to make things better between us, and she is still angry and trying to find a way to forget about it.

this whole year i've been wanting to do something happy with her, but i can't do anything. then finally, we talked after i apologized to her and begged for her to be my friend again. that night was great, and i felt so happy. and i didn't think there'd be a problem with me being busy and working all of the time, but now laura won't talk to me. i say two words, and she has to go. every time. gah!

and i talked to colin today. he treated me like a jerk for not writing every week, and he told me i was complaining like usual about everything. then i was telling becca about it, and ks thought i was yelling at her, and blew up. i wish that people wouldn't get offended for what i do. i don't want to have people hating me. i didn't ever set out to hurt anyone, and i'm doing my best to fix whatever i've done wrong.

on a good note, Jenna is amazing. We went to Sadies last night, and it was really a blast. The Desert Star Theatre was a lot of fun, and we went to Temple Square :D. The Temple Square trip was really great, cause it was spur of the moment, and we met Elder Atchley there (Jenna's missionary that just got transferred. I call him Elder Panic! at the Disco). Then we went up to the roof of the Joseph Smith Memorial Building and just sat and looked at temple square for a while. :D It made me so happy, and Jenna was just like "I could sit here forever."

trolley square is a creepy place. It was just like a complete downer, and I wasn't surprised that there was a shooting there a year ago. You know how they have horror movies set in like dark hallways and creepy carnivals? It was like that. And there was just a lot of creepy garbage there. I felt dirty after we left.

I love being outrageous and talking to strangers. Like we were at the gateway and asked to take a picture with some lady's dog. It totally made her day, and she was all excited, and told about how his name was Timothy. :D Happy random strangers are always good. I love meeting random people on the street who are just... cheerful. It gives me hope.